A MARRIAGE'S FATE

a failed Indian marriage


Being an Indian at heart I know,
Marriages are an early heaven's show.
It happens once in your life's flow,
And makes your whole world glow.
Is this the real marriage which I know,
Or is it just a worldly show?
You meet a person once in your life,
And dedicate yourself as an eternal bona fide?
How is it possible to give your heart and soul,
To that one person draped in matrimonial vows?

On and on the desolation grows,
A cacophony of thespian milieu to the core.
An ingenue to your heart becomes an aortic shrieking soprano more and more,
More and more the life's water flows,
A marriage is a river now I know,
Never able to touch the same water's flow.
Its up to us to accept the new as a friend or a foe.
If you love the river you'll kiss the old cup and show,
Your approval to it as a pristine halo.
The worst you can do is to abhor,
The new water and the shore.
And still fill the cup up to the brim,
Never letting it quench and be your heart's hymn.
It's better to leave the river than to know,
Your heart ails and yearns for a new dope.
Out of the river you get wings of serenity,
And returning to the river at nights,heart's heavy.

On and on the doping reaps and is being sown,
And still comes a kid with a schizophrenic coax.
He watches his parents and prays his life,
Not to devastate again anyone else's life.
He asks god for strength and forgiveness, a pugnacious astute,
For his parents to part ways with a chute.
It pains his heart to see them fight and makes him feel like a compunction's knight.
He loves them a lot and shows them he cares,
But maybe it's time to free them and give their share.
Of peace,happiness,independence and delight.
Growing and breeding, sucking the blood,this parasite.
Are marriages really a heavenly sight?
I saw this one ruining three lives
I hope this may not be your life's kite.

Up and up it floats and flies in the air,
In an attempt to cut the other kite,
Itself was lost,deserted, out of sight.
And caused pain to the one left behind,
Who was thinking its departure was a mere absence from site.

AN ENCOUNTER WITH NATURE

Roaring alarm,outside's pitch dark,
Woke up rubbing the eye wax off.
Went for my bath,grabbed my shoes,in the dawny dark.
Jogged on the road,leading to central park,
Bleary blue sky,familiar faces,a morning spark.
A strange idea hit my mental chords,
Experimented my routine,i gave it a shot.
Unplugged my ipod,chose to hear the nature's lark,
Silent,serene peace was truly a amiss.
My ears started bleeding in total sturdiness.
With a bitch's growling and barks so hard,
Hid her little kids beneath her twin leg guard.
She growled at a man,then tawny white,
Who involuntarily kicked her baby knight.
Bleeding ears soon led to bleaking eyes,
Reminded me of my mother and a stupid street kid fight.

My eyes finally came back to my road,
A tiny little bird sat at my toe.
A big black bird flew him back on her back,
Just to teach him, one day to leave her back.
She chided the baby bird out of her nest,
And forced him to fly in the big sky ahead.
She pushed yet caught whenever he hit,
Until he finally flew and left her stiff.

My jog now a walk caught yet another sight,
A boy trying to pluck a rose at my side.
A scream came 'Ow!'a thorn and a honey bee stung,
Was their way of saying"It's ours dear son".
Thorns the defense,bee was the rescuer,
Saved the red rose from being toyed by a mere.
A few more steps led me to a huge willow tree,
Had covered the path with it's sun-dried leaves.
A few leaves left still battling with the winds,
Not leaving their home,their mother,their den.
Swirling and winding to their very own ben,
Few gave in,rest still putting up a strange ken.
A look above in the sky,Oh!how i resent,
I saw my favorite ice cream in clouds' drawing.
No ice cream i said,those calories needs some burning,
My watch then ticked,time to hit the office,
Jogged my way back home chasing.

The little jog taught me many virtues quite missing,
The love,the care,the freedom and courage.
Wise enough for my day to brighten,
Went back home,to my own little den.
Since then my ipod's gone down my room's bin.

OH!HOW I WISH...

different from the rest.

A maiden-esque face her head so high,
Walked upfront her pompous assets upright.
A height so tall putting models to shame,
Her Jimmy Choo stilettos adding to her fame.
With her gait so cool,she had all eyes.
Girls around heaving a continuous sigh.
Oh!How I wished to be like her,
Having all eye candies savouring me instead of her.
And the opposite sex buzzing around her hive,
With her grotesque attitude she shooed all out of sight.
Being her friend,I knew her through,
She dreamed of just one man to suit.
She found him right and early in life,
And married him off barely clearing her sophomore diet.
OH!How I wished even more to bury,
Myself in a hatchet deep,heavy,
And dig myself underground,
For envying her for having all that I want.

3 years passed,I'm down with M.B.A.,
Luckily had a college reunion the very same day.
My eyes lurked around for the most gorgeous one,
She seemed to be the only missing one,
Puzzled I was with her absence so high,
How could she miss a party,she having all the adoring eyes?
Being so inquisitive about my dear friend,
Tracked her house just again to befriend.
Hoping to give her a tiny,little surprise,
Knew deep down it was again the envious,sulking time.
Knocked at her door,I would have thrown a hug,
Strangely my knock went unheard.
Clinked the door knob,I found it unlocked,
I tiptoed inside with a gleeful laugh.
It turned out I did give her a hug so wide.
But tears filled in my grotesque,puppy eyes.

She sat there on a chair at front,
Looking like a 50 year old some.
Her thin,lanky legs which used to put others to shame,
Were now all draped and hid behind a frame.
She wore a loose,white gown,
Her hands hung on the side,deep down.
I saw her face,my eyes popped out,
Wrinkles covered her fairy-esque face all around.
And her blue eyes which made the boys whirlwind,
Now lost in some other world akin.
Her hip long hair never tied to a class,
Were all chopped off barely hugging her scarf.
I slapped her hard and searched for her phone,
How could she be without one?she never even left it in a washroom alone.
I forced her to speak and continued hitting,
Finally came out a word from my mitten.
'ANDREA' she screamed,her eyes all wet,
I'm in the wrong house,that was clear in my head.
Stood from my seat,about to leave,
Her maid stopped me and forced to take a seat.
She told me a story out aloud,
And I got my answer to why her cell phone was missing,without a doubt.

Being so young and happily settled,
Wasn't able to shove off the immature youth off her kettle.
Sarah had a charming little gift,Andrea,her princess.
She loved her like her soul with gentle caress.
Talkative she was,gossiping around,
Eventually drowned her fairy from the world out.
She'd took Andrea for her bubble bath,
With the faucets all open,she played with her duck.
Sarah's cell phone rang,a close friend alert.
Talking her heart out she forgot poor Andrea,
Later found drowned in the tub,Oblivious panacea.
It was too late for the doctors to help,
Since then sat Sarah on the same chair in her den.
Never spoke a word to anyone out.
Only her constant screams 'ANDREA',eyes leaking out.

I sit by her side every now and then,
OH!How I wish no one to suffer like this.

LAST WORDS

This one's rare and precious.wrote at 4 a.m. and I'm ill


It's 4 a.m., my eyes wide open,
A strange thought is encircling my mind ocean.
Panting my wits out, I have a notion,
This could be my last words' potion.
At the brink of my career,I give away this hour,
To ask you, will you hold me tight when I leave this earthly spa?
Shakespearean midnight,dark devils have captured these hours,
And forcing me to think of my ending spark.
I lay on my bed with my sick body flunk,
With half shut eyes forcing me to outrun,
This temporary unrest to rest a permanent bliss,
Having no sick body or a mind unrest.

I ask you my parents,my love,my friend,
Will you be there with me when I leave my breath?
My eyes barely open with a forceful shutter,bidding farewell,
Will you be the one when I have my visionary arrest?
With my bloodshot eyes fixed on my inclined face frame,
Can I lock you up in them,in vain?
I ask of you as I lie in bed,
Will you be there before giving me a shoulder rest?
And sit by my side bidding farewell and not be the one crying when my body rests.
I want to hold you tight and tell you now,
You've always been my angelic guardian somehow.

Somehow I have this ghastly look,
I am leaving this world without you around the nook.
I wish you'll be there when my sick body pants,
I want you by the side of my bed stand,
Just to tell you how much I owe,
To you for making this one life a light year's show.
Your warmth,your love,your caress,your blow,
Made it feel like heaven on earth and a Satin's foe.

I want you there for hearing me out,
My last words which will be as I describe now
"I bid farewell to you my love,
Thanking you for being my god in this world.
I know not the god whom I'll meet in few minutes,
But I'm sure it'll be tough for him to match up to your spirits
. As he's every one's The Eternal,The Only,Holy One,
But for you I know, I was the only one.
I had my private,personal,possessive god in you,
How will that alizee possessed god can match up with you?
For him there are millions of people to mime,
But I thank you for treating me like your only child."

Will you be there to hear me out,
When my soul from this body fades out?
I wish for you to be with me there,
Allowing me to thank for your love and care.
Just be there in my last clock hours,
And let this be my gratitude to you,as I leave my body cage and this earthly spa.

ALIENATED

This is not one of my best and not even a fine work but is true to the core.A sequel to 'A silly Teenage Girl"

Seated in my room with a precarious look,
Scrolling my eyes towards every nook.
As if locked in a book of some fairy tale,
Searching for the page having my quick escape.
Choking in the dimensions of that overturned leaf,
Without a clue of its starting and how the ending would be.
An year has passed with vehement intensity,
And I stand here searching for my destiny.

Engorged in a bedlam of mental sanity,
Skeptical about everyone around me.
A series of events uprooted my identity,
And made me what I was afraid to be.
A heart so alone with pugnacious memories.,
Which led to camouflage myself to duality.
I am still the same vivacious,exuberant to all,
But deep down lies an alien like Gaul.

I laugh,blabber and dance with all,
My twinkling eyes are wise enough to deceit all.
The largest of laughs and the longest smile,
Has a babel of sobs behind so wide.
This sob,this wail has the power so high,
To deprive the seas of their highest tides.
Who made friendship and this eternal love?
Which tames and makes us a stupid dove.
You broke my trust,my heart,my love ,
And made me now a dark emo introvert.
Why did u ogle at me like a connoisseur of love?
And made me believe in your disguised bluff.
The time has elapsed with me still standing here ,
Waiting for someone to calm my fear.
Guess no one will come today or tomorrow,
As I have caged myself and my worthless sorrow.
I thank god for this early evil show.
My heart and mindset no one will ever know.