LAST WORDS

This one's rare and precious.wrote at 4 a.m. and I'm ill


It's 4 a.m., my eyes wide open,
A strange thought is encircling my mind ocean.
Panting my wits out, I have a notion,
This could be my last words' potion.
At the brink of my career,I give away this hour,
To ask you, will you hold me tight when I leave this earthly spa?
Shakespearean midnight,dark devils have captured these hours,
And forcing me to think of my ending spark.
I lay on my bed with my sick body flunk,
With half shut eyes forcing me to outrun,
This temporary unrest to rest a permanent bliss,
Having no sick body or a mind unrest.

I ask you my parents,my love,my friend,
Will you be there with me when I leave my breath?
My eyes barely open with a forceful shutter,bidding farewell,
Will you be the one when I have my visionary arrest?
With my bloodshot eyes fixed on my inclined face frame,
Can I lock you up in them,in vain?
I ask of you as I lie in bed,
Will you be there before giving me a shoulder rest?
And sit by my side bidding farewell and not be the one crying when my body rests.
I want to hold you tight and tell you now,
You've always been my angelic guardian somehow.

Somehow I have this ghastly look,
I am leaving this world without you around the nook.
I wish you'll be there when my sick body pants,
I want you by the side of my bed stand,
Just to tell you how much I owe,
To you for making this one life a light year's show.
Your warmth,your love,your caress,your blow,
Made it feel like heaven on earth and a Satin's foe.

I want you there for hearing me out,
My last words which will be as I describe now
"I bid farewell to you my love,
Thanking you for being my god in this world.
I know not the god whom I'll meet in few minutes,
But I'm sure it'll be tough for him to match up to your spirits
. As he's every one's The Eternal,The Only,Holy One,
But for you I know, I was the only one.
I had my private,personal,possessive god in you,
How will that alizee possessed god can match up with you?
For him there are millions of people to mime,
But I thank you for treating me like your only child."

Will you be there to hear me out,
When my soul from this body fades out?
I wish for you to be with me there,
Allowing me to thank for your love and care.
Just be there in my last clock hours,
And let this be my gratitude to you,as I leave my body cage and this earthly spa.

ALIENATED

This is not one of my best and not even a fine work but is true to the core.A sequel to 'A silly Teenage Girl"

Seated in my room with a precarious look,
Scrolling my eyes towards every nook.
As if locked in a book of some fairy tale,
Searching for the page having my quick escape.
Choking in the dimensions of that overturned leaf,
Without a clue of its starting and how the ending would be.
An year has passed with vehement intensity,
And I stand here searching for my destiny.

Engorged in a bedlam of mental sanity,
Skeptical about everyone around me.
A series of events uprooted my identity,
And made me what I was afraid to be.
A heart so alone with pugnacious memories.,
Which led to camouflage myself to duality.
I am still the same vivacious,exuberant to all,
But deep down lies an alien like Gaul.

I laugh,blabber and dance with all,
My twinkling eyes are wise enough to deceit all.
The largest of laughs and the longest smile,
Has a babel of sobs behind so wide.
This sob,this wail has the power so high,
To deprive the seas of their highest tides.
Who made friendship and this eternal love?
Which tames and makes us a stupid dove.
You broke my trust,my heart,my love ,
And made me now a dark emo introvert.
Why did u ogle at me like a connoisseur of love?
And made me believe in your disguised bluff.
The time has elapsed with me still standing here ,
Waiting for someone to calm my fear.
Guess no one will come today or tomorrow,
As I have caged myself and my worthless sorrow.
I thank god for this early evil show.
My heart and mindset no one will ever know.

OUR NATION,OUR MOTHERLAND

This has been written in special reference to the MUMBAI 26/11 mishap and i under no circumstances am going to compare it with the U.S. 9/11 as this was a greater disaster and a severe loss to mankind and India and the U.S. was wise enough never to allow any act of terrorism to happen in their nation in future while we are still unsure about the similar consequences in India.This piece of work points out mainly the aftermath of 26/11 the reaction the response both from the civilians,government and the army,security forces.This is by far the best creation of mine

Terror,cataclysmic carnage' here
Crying infants amok with fear.
What's wrong with the nation?there's no clue
Our warm homes now caught in icy loo.
Our country,Our home,Our motherland
Is killing her baby boy with her very own hands?
Pakistan,Dawood are dubious of character
Are they the only suspects of this slaughter hereafter?
Disparaging ministers,the unequipped security
To the wry ministers sauntering the crime scenes
The irresponsible government barking from their leisure seats
Making statements,comments under the sun
Having overflowing security after all the work' done.
How would they understand the desolation of the young?
Who came for just a stroll to get the"FEEL" as a pun.
Moaning fathers for their martyr sons, a loss
And ministers tag them equivalent to dogs!!!.
Few great journalists pinpointing & exposing the corrupt system
Are regarded as sheen lipstick wearing ladies and gimmicky for some.

What's wrong,what's happening?a never ending saga
Nothing used to be as ensconce as our own 'Bharat Mata'.
Who was responsible for the time which passed?
Why no one is taking the responsibility of these terror struck hours?
Where is the P.M.,C.M(s),and the President now?
Why does Vilasrao brings his Bollywood entourage along?
Is this a motion film or a period drama
With a script at hand needing a filmy sauna?
9 dead and one with the armed forces
How will he ever repay the thousands who were killed by his sinister sources?
Hundreds who died and hundreds now half dead
With grief filled hearts resulting in their very own end.

The nuking process aint worthy of applaud
Everyone has failed in their own duty slot.
Before pointing across the border to the neighboring forces
What did we do except lighting a candle and wearing white for mourning?
Let us just analyze our soul and our brain sources
Is this enough to fight against these evil hoaxes?
Can't we interrupt these ministerial verbose talks
And just speak out in the in-between pause.

Wake up countrymen,this is the time for vengeance
Not against the government or just the Paksitani forces
But just to pacify our guilt struck nerve coaxes.
Wake up,rise and lets join hands
Scream out loud for our very own stand,
United we rule,divided we are skank
It's time to speak for our Mumbai,our nation and our very own motherland.

NATURE AT STAKE

This is just a poem relating to nature and environment and how mankind is going on using and depleting all the natural resources for his personal benefit as these resources are depleting at an alarming rate a time will come when everything will end and we being the primary cause of it

World's progressing day by day
At the cost of nature suffering as time sways.
People becoming restless,flying at time's speed
So is the environment and its serene beauty.
With transports multiplying every hour
Cutting down every minute of atmospheric spa.
The stars are fading from the jaded sky
Now looks sinister once peaceful with twinkling eyes.
The enchanting moonlight used to gulf the streets
Now lost amongst the clouds of smoke and fuels burnt by high speeds
One look above the head,a bluish,white sky was the sight
Horse shaped,butterfly,ice cream look alike clouds
Seems to me now all fading out
Transparent water is now blue and green
With germs and bacteria gloating to eternity
Sitting in my car watching the view
A scene of withering trees and naked branches askew

Where is the air,the ambiance gone?
Ebullient peace was sought with arms stretched out
Breathing deep in the early morning open air
Will now rust the bronchitis and give asthma without fear
Global warming becoming a subject of publicity
How will green award function carpets save the earth's serenity?
The chirping of birds to the cracking of grasshoppers
All is lost amongst big town car honkers
How can one believe there used to be Adam and Eve
Who were actually punished for eating from a sacred tree
The fruits are vanishing and so the trees
With faux fruits becoming the new showpiece
The modern day yuppie is all about himself
Who is bothered about the earth or the environment living in?
New parameters are defining nature
Air Conditioners are available who needs to be the morning breeze inhaler?

Adding on smoke,exhausting the fuels
One day will come there would be nothing to use
Nor the air,the water,the plants and fruits
Animals will extinct soon as consumed food
What will you eat and feed on then?
With everything depleting as this earth spins
The downfall of mankind has marked its onset
Can you guess who'll die first- the environment or the one creating its deathbed?

JUVENILE DREAMS

This one I wrote soon after my b'day as i hav turned 18 this is an ode to my juvenile:)
A broad grin on face with a toothless smile
Got many gifts then for my broken jawline
As the tooth fairy slipped in room tiptoed
Keeping gifts safely under my pillow
A dream in heart of having my chocolate home
Mickey mouse,Minnie Mouse playing dog and the bone
Santa Claus my guardian giving me gifts
Who'll wait for Christmas preparing wish lists?
Wearing beautiful sandals walking with my girly gait
Left one behind for my prince charming to find it

Gazing at the black starry night
Eyes tight shut at a shooting star sight
Those tiny hair of my eyebrows
Which fall at the tip of my nose
Plucked from the nose kept on the back fist
Murmured a wish then gone with the wind
Talking to my moon uncle on upset nights
To dancing with joy in its soothing light
My fighting spirit never gave up
On counting the stars in the sky above
Sleeping silently with my teddy
Everyday staring the sun,my eyes heavy

A wish at heart though it's funny
Marrying my prince,the funny bugs bunny
Eating his carrot he'll ask"what's up doc? Will you marry me honey and live in my block?"
Myself adorned with white gown and a bouquet in hand
Tazz,Tweety,Sylvester,Lola and the gang
Attending my wedding on granny's stand

The dream has broken as time flowed by
I've walked ahead leaving all behind
Ten years have passed since I had this sight
Still these dreams bring a smile on the face so bright
The innocence,the cuteness,like a child's kite
All has ended and blown out of mind
All grown up,my fairy land decayed
A feeling of never letting go of this wishful state
Where all is perfect a state of nirvana
I wish never to let go of my kiddy persona

MY CLASS

This is dedicated to all my classmates my science batch of my school St. Patrick's Junior College in this I hav mentioned sum of the activities of my class nd friends one crazy gang v were:P luv them all:)

Sitting in class,celebrating the day
The sun pounced out shining bright ablaze
A series of events followed the day
Which makes me laugh even after months swayed
Chatting and laughing with my group of friends
Suddenly a scream came loud from the class within
A friend of mine howling for her lost spectacles
Laughing it off we ignored the scenario
Until tears rolled down melting our hard cores
Searching through the chairs,desks and bags
The specs were found in her tiffin nicely wrapped
Rolling on floor laughing at her mistake
Later on she joined cursing her stupid brain

Sitting in class,celebrating the day
Next moment I saw my friends enacting 'DIL MIL GAYE'
Arman and Ridhima god knows what
With some being cupboard and curtains all along
As this love story honked the class
Another one erupted on blackboard with chalks
Smooching chutila saanps declaring their love
Or wishing happy birthday to a fellow friend of ours
With a blink of an eye my friends disappeared
Next moment I saw them doing push-ups without fear
I sat there sympathizing their state
By declaring to the world I am not with them
As this gyming session ended here
I heard an imaginary couple fighting near
My sanity was lost confirmed the day
When I saw the Macbeth couple fighting in Punjabi all the way
Shakespeare was raped and so was Indian Television
When we have more masala than the cinematic works
Who'll go to cinemas on this god damn earth?

Sitting in class,celebrating the day
Every second was a bliss now passed away
That life,those friends chose different paths
Still all are same with occasional meetings all along
Celebrating those days,sun pounces all day
With those memories in mind so fresh
A Smile prevails as a new day begins

THE LAND UNKNOWN

Well this is a little different from the rest in this I am talking about 2 different lives one which we are living and one which we often refer as life after death it highlights the common man' inquisitiveness regarding what happens when we die where do we go and what happens there

Beyond the skies
Deep down the earthly mines
A place exists quintessential and soothing to sight
With age old miseries buried way below
To the fog of corruption simmering slow
Exists a land the one unknown
Which the earth envies kleptomaniac ages ago
With the unsuccessful effort of stealing the place
Hypo mania exists in this buffer state
Serene,unpolluted by all the worldly vows
Where man rests in peace after age old show
This is the land of the unknown,the land of the dead
Complete idyllic state psychedelic and blessed

Beyond the skies
Deep down the earthly mines
Exists sound state of melancholic lullaby
Soft in its tune,hypnotic in nature
The man slumbers in it sooner or later

This is the place fetched by the dead
As we pray for the departed to rest in peace ahead
This state exists here everyone smiling without fear
Sabotaged their world above smiling here
Seeing us suffer with worldly tyranny
A cacophony of thoughts enrolling my mind sea
As no one ever came back to describe the sight
What could be so pure beyond these skies and earthly mines?
Death is inevitable as we all know
Still we wish for it when extremely low
Why do people wish for death?
When troubled and depressed
Coffin for us,tiara for the dead
Wearing with pride bidding farewell
What is this place?where people go?
Does god exists there with angels timely show?
Curious at heart,wishing to know
This land of dead for it to show
Guess there are years till I figure it out
This land beyond the skies,deep down the earthly mines
A place quintessential and soothing to sight

PREMONITION OF LIFE

This is one of my fvourite poems which highlights the feeling our presumed notion that life is always fair and everything happens as we wish and as we want but in reality it is completely different and we have to toil and work hard enough to achieve happiness and bliss

Living these 17 years of life
Everything pristine was my imaginary sight
Going up and down my life's elevator
Things gonna be fine sooner or later
This was something which I was always taught
The time has come to break my cocoon crackpot
My fairytale image became blurred in these years
Now I stand in darkness,trembling with fear
My life long myth is finally broken
The mind's photographic film is ruptured and swollen
A black film reel rolls inside my mind
Waiting for someone to cast the projector light
Showing me the path the one which I know
I walk with a stick in a blind man's zone
Living these 17 years of life
Everything pristine was my imaginary sight

Why did this happen?I ask myself
Am I too dumb or the world's too sane?
Melancholic lullaby sung by god
Sending angels and fairies as his mascots
Tricking my brain to see this side
Never knew devils and imps were on the flip side
Laughing silently enjoying their tyranny
Planning for the greater evil ahead for me
The coin is tossed I am on the flip side
Darkness prevails on my either side
Witnessing this phase as a new born child
Still I feel familiar with this new sight
Now I realize this as that buffer zone
Always hidden by fog and hailstorms

The fog has cleared and so has my sight
Still I feel afraid and alone in this life
My premonition of life was just a fairy tale
Always saw Cinderella,Snow white and her Dwarfs
Ignoring the step sisters and witches on the block
Counting these 17 years on my life's clock
Everything is blurred,completely knocked off
I wish my life's rainbow to soon bloom
Coloring my life,oiling the film
Moving my soul now on standstill
Entering this 18th year of my life
I wish everything to be pristine and worthwhile

MY WEAKER SIDE

LOVE STRUCK-that's it

I am the gen x girl
Pawned everyone who came in my world
I rock all yea that's the way to go
Everyone else' extremely low
I stand apart yea I am world apart
That was my dear friend's departing shot

Now I come face to face with reality
This one stranger comes in my life
Makes me aware of my weaker side
His innocent smile seeps down in me
Why I feel ebullient in his victory?
Why do I cry in his paining agony?
When I have got other things bothering me
This one stranger comes in my life
Makes me aware of my weaker side

Taunting,bullying were by-products of me
Why do I feel joyous when annoyed by thee?
I like it when you make fun of me
Oh my god what's wrong with me?
What I have become I have no clue
Without you calling I feel blue
This one stranger comes in my life
Makes me aware of my weaker side

The time has come to bid goodbye
To long talks and our silent cries
Being so apart we are still one seed
Sprouting out in one such tree
Promising we'll meet for eternity

This life's clock sucks like hell
Don't worry this is not the parting bell
Its just a beginning of something new
With hopes at heart pure as morning dew
Being apart I'll remember thee
For making me aware of the girl in me
This one stranger comes in my life
Makes me aware of my weaker side
My journey of life became worthwhile

GEN NEXT GIRLS

I love dis poem in literal sense it's a brief description about the general fad followed by the girls of today and how a simple plain girl feels often confused and unsatisfied about what people are wearing and following and how she is treated when it comes to fashion

Oh my god these gen next girls
Donated their grey cells to the satanic herd
Whining for every pristine jewel
Books and novels are off the shelves
A silhouette of makeup instead of spectacles on the eye
Contacts are in and so are laser eyes
Halters,tunics,spaghetti are the fad
And I am looked down upon wearing Ts and baggy jeans pack
M.A.C,H&M,DNG are known
And UNESCO,FAO are for vehement wierdos
Oh my god these gen next girls
Donated their grey cells to the satanic herd

Seeing a décolletage nauseates my soul
Though it’s a mark of all celebutante of the world
"You are a tawdry disgraceful boffin”says one of my friends
Just because I am secluded from mini skirts and trends?
Oh my god these gen next girls
Donated their grey cells to the satanic herd

Why is it necessary to have unguiculate nails?
When simple blunt are quite comfortable carrying with
“You are a ruthless cannibal”terms my vegan friend
And the next moment I see her wearing a mink fur within
Telepathy lacks between me and this fake world
Is their no one to combat for simplicity and works?
I keep my self aloof from this ostentatious environment
I am quite comfortable with my sweatshirt and high necks
But this one question whirlpools my mind
Why these gen next girls donated their grey cells to the satanic herd?

FRIENDSHIP WITH YOU

This is all about my friendship with my best friend Pranjali luv u dear:):D

Friendship with you is something very dear
Days without you is my all time fear
Our late night talks to early morning class
These memories and talks end here alas!
The way my head found its way to your shoulder
Strengthening and comforting me against any boulder
Spending everyday chatting and gossiping
I wonder why our talks are always never ending
Without you around my days gonna be blue
My dear friend i'll surely miss you
Friendship with you is something very dear
Days without you is my all time fear

Friendship with you is something very dear
Shouting and howling and sharing our tear
To those long hugs and your cute little smile
I bid adieu with tearful eyes
With pain in heart of letting you go
To someone really close to my god damn soul
Friendship with you is something very dear
Days without you is my all time fear

As we move ahead in life
I know dear friend there won't be anyone like you in time
Pledging at heart I assure you dear friend
I am never gonna be close to anyone else
Now its time for me to stop here
And confront my all time dreading fear
Thanking you for all the favors you've done on me
And making my life a mesmerizing journey
Friendship with you is something very dear
Days without you is my all time fear

A SILLY TEENAGE GIRL

This one is close to my heart and also highlights many of those phases I have gone through that's all I'll say

I am a silly teenage girl
Was quite sure about everything in this world
I thought I had the power of judging someone new
And strip them off if something wasn't suit

I am a silly teenage girl
Now I know the reality of this banalitic herd
Everyonez fake selfish to the core
Pretending to be an ambien to my soul
With sweet talks flattery they thought they won me
but living in a village I know its reality
Everyone is nothing more than just a wannabe

I being a silly teenage girl
A whirlpool of emotions raped my inner true soul
My judging capability I lost quite soon
I met someone coz of whom my life bloomed
He put up a grotesque show of love
And I being a silly teenage girl
Became a victim of his genuine words

I being a silly teenage girl
Never realized the reality of this banalitic herd
I am nothing more than entertainment for some
If I am not available they'll catch anyone

Now I cry on my mental plight
When my self respect and dignity has taken a flight
A time machine wishes my paining agony
Adjusting the time a year back or so
Fixing everything in just one go
I hate myself what i have made of me
For someone who has just used and thrown me

What I have become I have no clue
Everyone else is just beneath my shoe
with this thought i move on in my life
No more of this silly teenage girl swearing for lifetime

I am not the silly teenage girl
I'll sue everyone who'll come in my world

WORLD'S TOTALLY AMISS

This is my first poem,my favourite and very very close to my heart it issurprisingly many of my friends' favourite too well I won't say anything about it coz I can't express what I feel about this one.This is something which I really wish from the bottom of my heart:)

I stand aside my window sill
And feel my world's totally amiss
With every person passing by
I envy their eternal bliss

I wish I could fly free
Way above the mountains,clouds and the soothing sea
I covet the bird flying high
Looking down on every passer by

I wish I could fly free
And reach the zenith of eternity
I stand aside my window sill
And feel my world's totally amiss

I look at those juvenile twitter heads
Screaming"howzatt" at loggerheads
Their crystal eyes with twinkling hopes
I try to find the little Naveli
Who never at time screamed"howzatt"
But at every soccer goal said "how cool is that"
I stand aside my window sill
and feel my world's totally amiss

I stand aside my window sill
Now am entangled by dorks and hypocrites
Flattery mockery all that shit seems to me the Agra hit

I wish I could fly free
Way above the mountains and seas
To a place fetching psychedelic bliss
All at par no selfish gist
Away from this ruthless selfish world
Oblivious of this materialistic surd
My age old innocence I surrender thee
Myself with those coveted wings flying free
Down the nostalgic lane of serenity


I wish I could fly free
Departed from manly cacophony
My soul and body in symphony

I stand aside my window sill
And feel my world's totally amiss